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[03 Mar 2005|09:59pm] |
This is for you;
Tell me I`m Beautiful;
Then, curse at me.
Tell me you love me;
you just want to fuck me.
You want to control me;
and I put up a fight.
You always won, but I
tried my best, I guess.
You say "It`s all for my own good;"
but you don`t mean that.
What you meant to say was;
it`s going to be this way,
just because you think it should be.
You say you love;
but you contradict yourself.
You left me, more than once;
I held tight, didn`t let you go.
You had me under your spell,
wrapped around your finger, &
you knew it all too well.
I finally won though;
I left you, crying;
And now; you miss me,
but I won`t allow you to hold on.
Tell me all my failures;
I know you will.
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[21 Feb 2005|12:58pm] |
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1. Pick your birth month.
2. Underline anything that doesn't apply to you.
3. Bold what best applies to you.
4. Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a journal cut
APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.
( Twelve Months ♥ )
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[16 Jan 2005|07:00pm] |
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1. Copy and post this into your own diary.
2. Bold any statement that is true about you.
3. Leave plain anything that is false.
4. Add 5 things of your own at the bottom.
001. I miss somebody right now.
002. I watch more TV than I used to.
003. I love olives.
004. I love sleeping.
005. I own a home.
006. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
007. I love to play video games. [ old school nintendo = <3 ]
008. I've done something illegal.
009. I've watched porn movies.
010. I have been in a threesome.
011. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. (( I`m usually the one to end the relationship, and have the stalkers, haha. ))
012. I like my handwriting.
013. I have acne-free skin. (( most of the time ))
014. I like and respect Al Sharpton. (( who is this? ))
015. I curse frequently. (( oops.. ))
016. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (( for the BETTER, thank you Jesus ))
017. I have a hobby. (( quite a few, actually ))
018. I've been to another country. (( Mexico & a few others ))
019. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
020. I'm really, really smart. (( Yes, I really am.. I'm just lazy & bored with school.. ))
021. I've never broken anyone else's bones.
022. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
023. I love rain.
024. I'm paranoid at times.
025. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (( I`d probably get a breast lift, but nothing else. ))
026. I need money right now. (( Justin & I are going to the mall tomorrow.. ))
027. I love sushi.
028. I talk really, really fast sometimes. (( & I usually don`t realize it. ))
029. I have fresh breath in the morning. (( I don`t really check my breath in the morning, but I`m figuring it wouldn`t be fresh.. ))
030. I have semi-long hair.
031. I have lost money in Las Vegas. (( Well, I lost it when everything I bought out there went up in flames.. ))
032. I have at least one brother and/or sister. (( He`s not alive, but yeah. ))
033. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
034. I shave my legs. (( Sometimes.. ))
035. I have a twin. (( The world couldn`t handle two of me.. so I`ve been told. ))
037. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. (( I would probably just hang up on them if I didn`t want to talk.. ))
038. I like the way that I look. (( Not usually. ))
039. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
040. I know how to do cornrows.
041. I am usually pessimistic.
042. I have mood swings.
043. I think prostitution should be legalized.
044. I think Britney Spears is pretty. (( I think hott is a better word. ))
045. I have cheated on a significant other.
046. I have a hidden talent.
047. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
048. I've been sexually intimate with less than ten people.
049. I am currently single.
050. I have kissed someone of the same sex. (( I`m not gay; these things just.. happen, haha ))
051. I enjoy talking on the phone. (( Justin & I live together, why do I need a phone? Well, Tiff, but she can just come over & talk. ))
052. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
053. I love to shop.
054. I would rather shop than eat.
055. I would classify myself as ghetto.
056. I'm bourgeoisie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders. (( Not anymore. ))
057. I'm obsessed with my diary!
058. I don't hate anyone.
059. I'm a pretty good dancer.
060. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington.
061. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
062. I have a cell phone.
063. I watch MTV on a daily basis.
065. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
067. I have never been in a real relationship before.
068. I've rejected someone before.
069. I currently have a crush on someone.
070. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
071. I want to have children in the future.
072. I have changed a diaper before.
073. I've had the cops called on me before.
074. I bite my nails.
075. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
076. I'm not allergic to anything deadly.
077. I have a lot to learn.
078. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger than me.
079. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.
080. I am very shy around the opposite sex.
081. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
082. I have at least 5 away messages saved.
083. I have been rejected by someone.
084. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past. (( I would NEVER do this.. ))
085. I own the "SOUTH PARK" movie.
086. I have avoided work to play on diary sites.
087. When I was a kid, I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
088. I enjoy country music.
089. I love my best friends.
090. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. (( PAPA J0HN`s is good too.. ))
091. I watch soap operas whenever I can.
092. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
093. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
094. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
095. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story."
096. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
097. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
098. I have dated a close friend's ex. (( That`s wrong.. ))
099. I'm happy as of this moment.
100. I have gone scuba diving.
101. I have had a crush on somebody I have never met.
102. I've kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.
103. I play a musical instrument.
104. I strongly dislike math.
105. I'm procrastinating on something right now.
106. I own and use a library card
107. I fall in "lust" more than in "love."
108. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest things ever.
110. I'm obsessed with the tv show "The O.C."
111. I am resentful that I have to grow up.
112. I am an entirely different person around different people.
113. I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often.
114. I think ramen is one of the best foods in the whole world.
115. I am suffering of a broken heart.
116. I am a nerd.
117. No matter where I am or who I'm with, I always seem to be lonely.
118. I am left handed and proud of it.
119. I try not to change who I am for someone.
120. My heart resides below my feet.
121. I have had sex with someone I was not in a relationship with.
122. I enjoy smoothies.
123. I have had major surgery.
124. I have adopted a pet from the SPCA.
125. I am listening to Radiohead right now.
126. Some people call me by a nickname.
127. I once stole a music stand.
128. I like pumpkin pie.
129. I love NASCAR!
130. I own over 200 CDs.
131. I work 7 days a week.
132. I have mono.
132. I don't have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.
133. People tell me I have a horrible sense of humor.
134. I'm still in my PJs.
135. I'm looking for love in all the wrong places.
136. I have a tendency to fall for the wrong guys, or have them fall for me, so I can't help but reciprocate.
137. I'll try anything three times.
138. Done drugs other than alcohol or cannabis.
139. I'm having trouble sleeping.
140. I am a cuddler.
141. I love John Waters films.
142. I have made a pornographic videotape.
143. Sloth is my favorite deadly sin.
144. One of my boobs is bigger than the other.
145. I know all the words to the "Firefly" theme song.
146. I am abnormally obsessed with all things Buffy/Angel.
147. I love comfort food.
148. I'm a right-winged conservative Christian, and damned proud of it. So there.
149. I'm Catholic.
150. I can walk a mile without feeling like I’m going to die over.
151. I am a college student.
152. I love to cook.
153. I hate vacuuming with a passion.
154. I'm addicted to photography and picture frames.
155. I've never taken Algebra 2.
156. I love the show Starting Over.
157. I love Harlequin Romance books.
158. I find that, when prepared correctly, I really enjoy Vegemite on buttered toast.
159. I enjoy hentai.
160. I think that Keith Urban is the best musician.
161. I do at least 3 surveys a week for my diaries.
162. I honestly think I am better, have a better man, have a better child, and have a better life than anyone else I know. (( except the child & the I thing.. ))
163. I have green eyes.
164. I have blue eyes.
165. I'm a high school student.
166. I'm very happily married.
167. I'm an avid reader.
168. I have no plans to ever work in the future at a job.
169. I am currently trying to lose weight. (( let us not go there.. ))
170. I love the movie Pretty Woman.
171. My husband and I made a decision to join the military life.
172. I have not had my period since October 19th.
172. I've taken 2 HPTs and both were negative *shrugs*
173. my daddy has a boyfriend of 10 years.
174. i get really really pissed when i see babies/toddlers NOT in car seats.
175. i loathe cigarettes.
176. i change my socks at least 3 times a day.
177. i wish i had a good bottle or 2 of wine right now.
178. I get emotionally attached to people rather quickly.
179. I am ambidextrous.
180. I am impatient.
181. I am terrified of driving in the snow.
182. I sleep with a stuffed animal.
183. I don’t think any modern pop music group can even compete with the Rolling Stones of the ‘60’s.
184. I love math.
185. I have visited all 48 states in the continental U.S.
186. I have written a (published) book.
187. I have met (in person) at least five people whom I originally met on the Internet.
188. I have blonde hair.
189. I've dyed my hair at least once.
190. I can only read digital clocks.
191. I prefer pepsi rather than coke.
192. I've been fired from a job before.
193. i've dated a hockey player.
194. i'm a daddy's girl.
195. my best friend is a guy.
196. sweet tea is the greatest thing in the entire world.
197. i'm single.
198. i never wear white socks.
199. i eat popcorn at least once a week.
200. i've skipped school at least once in the past week.
201. i love pizza.
202. my favourite colour is blue.
203. I LOVE music
204. I'm going to own a hummer someday.
205. PiNK is my favorite color!! =) (( any bright color. ))
206. My wisdom teeth are coming in, but they aren't bugging me, so whatever.
207. I'm a cheerleader.
208. I live with my boyfriend.
209. I`m allergic to underwear.
210. I live off energy drinks. Nitro 2 Go & Red Bull.
211. I play cards at least 2 nights a week.
212. I love my Lord, my boyfriend, and my family; they come before anyone or anything else.
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[08 Jan 2005|09:59pm] |
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the last four things you've bought:
- gas
- Victoria Secret "PiNK" Sweatpants
- Victoria Secret "PiNK" shirt
- Victoria Secret VERY SEXY 1 & 2 For Her
four drinks you regularly drink:
- water
- pink lemonade
- dr. pepper (I always drink some of Justins)
- Sunkist
four favorite foods:
- Queso dip from Ruby Tuesday
- Baked Potatoe with butter, sour cream, & cheese
- Cheese sticks
- Anything Justin will cook me.
last time you cried? Today. Justin left early this morning to go work with his dad (unexpected) I couldn`t find my cigarettes & Justin took my lighter, so I couldn`t find one of those either & I just let go..
what's in your cd player? Kenny Chesney / George Jones mix, 3 Doors Down, & something else. In my car; Hank William Jr..
what are you thinking about at the moment? I want Justin to get home & my shoulder is hurting.
what time did you wake up today? I got up & peed sometime & then woke up around 8:30..
current hair: down&straightened.
current clothes: Victoria Secret "PiNK" sweatpants, "Whitney" shirt from six flags, & socks..
current desktop picture: Something I made..
current worry: Nothin`.
current hate: Ehhh, how I don`t eat right & gain weight..
favorite places to be: Anywhere with Justin.
least favorite place: Hospital (unless a baby is born) & Funeral / Funeral home
how tall are you? 5'2" &1/2
favorite expression: It`s gravy, baby. C`est jui, bebe..
one person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: Pawpaw. & My brother (though he isn`t really from my past, but ya know).
favorite day of the week: Weekends, whichever night (if any) that Justin gets off..
where would you like to be right now? On the beach with Justin.
where do you want to live when you get married? Where ever will be best for my family & myself.
most dominant color in your wardrobe: White, & denim.
number of pillows you sleep with: I sleep with two or three in Justin`s room, but like 15 in my room, seriously..
what do you wear to bed? nothing, just a tee shirt, or a tee shirt & boxers..
what were you doing at 12am last night? Justin took me to his bed `cause I fell asleep downstairs. & I was out.
how old will you be in ten years? Twenty-five.
what do you think you'll be doing in ten years? Married, starting a family, working.
do you have braces? no
are you paranoid? Eh, sometimes, maybe.
do you burn or tan? tan.
what is the brand of your wallet? Hello KITTY!.
first piercing: ears.
first enemy: Who knows?..
last person you yelled at: MM, I dunno..
last crush: Aww, Justin.
last thing you ate: Cold pizza & popcorn, haha.
<3 y`all.
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[08 Jan 2005|05:43pm] |
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I love;
my boyfriend & our families.
the beach & the snow.
the city & the country.
life.
I love to;
spend the whole day with him, sleep by him every night, & wake up to him every morning. watch movies with him & have him take me shopping. play cards all night & hide-&-go-seek at midnight on chilly nights, drink and have drunken sex. have fun.
I miss;
my girls & our nights out; my Pawpaw (R.I.P.), my old home, Justin`s family, summer, my friends (no one in particular.)
Adrienne & I are talking & God, I miss those times. We had so much fun, & now we`ve all split & everything. She was telling me she missed me & I miss her (& Tiff) too. We had some damn good times. Drinking wine in the hot-tub, trying to help me drink away my pain, and playing "I don`t want you back" over and over & wow. Those girls were there for me. Then, we fought and split. Now, it`s hard for anyone to get together because I have to plan around Justin (hell, he does live with me) and they all have boyfriends..
Oh, I tried to talk to Jenn. So, I feel better, I did my part. And I realized, she isn`t the person she used to be. That`s okay, neither am I.
As you can probably tell, I`m kinda down. I need to just go for a drive, and smoke. I only have on cigarette though. I think I`ll go visit Tiff at work.
I`m gonna go. <3
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My eating disorder is spinning out of control. I hadn`t ate since Tuesday night, so I ate breakfast today.. I came home from school, and was so glad & happy that I`d been doing well, so I decided to fix myself a sandwich & have some chips. I hadn`t even finished the sandwich & I started feeling like shit for eating it. So, I ran to the back porch and puked everything up. I don`t know how I`ve gotten this way. It`s all I think about. Do I look fat right now? You can`t eat that. And these things just recite over and over in my head.
I`ve been actually concentrating on school. Even in Chemistry, Coach actually came back to our table today & was like "WHOA" because we never do anything, we always talk. I`ve realized that school is the only thing I need to focus on, nothing else will matter after May 2007. So, therefore, the petty shit is over.
Yet, I have been dwelling on something. Something that I believe I have every right to dwell on, I`ve even dreamed about it. As most of you know, I pretty much lost my best friend. I don`t know how or why. She just totally quit talking to me.. I`m thinking that some people are telling her shit about me and she`s believing. Because this isn`t like her, we`ve been friends for four years and nothing has ever come between us. She seems like a totally different person, and I just miss my old JD. (Yes, she did start dating Ashton, but to me, that has nothing to do with it. Unless he`s the reason she quit talking to me.) I`m actually glad Ashton & her got together. I think they make a good couple, and this gives him a chance to let me go. During the summer, I was always scared to talk to him because everytime we would even begin to have a normal conversation, he would change it all around to how he misses me & wished we could have had a child together (pregnancy scare) because a baby might have changed everything, and he would end up crying & leaving. That`s no way to live, I know that as well as anyone. I just don`t understand why I had to lose the only person I trusted.
So, I woke up this morning & wanted to call her and talk to her & work everything out, but I couldn`t remember the first 3 digits of her number, so I didn`t. Then, at school, I realized that she just doesn`t need me anymore, and I guess I don`t need her. So, I finally got over it today. Things change, people change, but life goes on.
I`m trying to get out of athletics. I want to go to Ag. Athletics is boring & most of them are rich & quite snobby. Yes, it`s nice to have girl talks sometimes, but when all you ever have to talk about it your new purse or outfit & all the latest juicy gossip, & your next cheer competition, something is seriously wrong. It must be nice to have a life like that, but you are so damn boring!
Justin`s taking me to the mall & to a movie tomorrow night. We`ve been dating almost a year & we`ve never been to the movies, haha.
<3
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[02 Jan 2005|10:50am] |
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20O4; in review
- Ashton, Ashton, Ashton. January-April, some of the worst times of my life. Fighting, cheating, breaking up; hell, I don`t ever know why we stayed together as long as we did.
- Cutting. I can`t say that I wish I hadn`t, because I`m afraid if I wouldn`t have cut, I would have killed myself. This was also in January-April, go figure.
- I started hanging out with Erik & "Enterprise" as everyone knew him. I was immediately attracted to him, but wouldn`t let myself fall for him, all the while, he was falling for me too.
- I went fishing with Erik & Enterprise a lot. Enterprise taught me how to use an open mouth reel & we walked around the pond together.
- April, we had been fishing at the pond, then later went to the lake. I wanted to kiss him so badly, but I was still with Ashton. He built a fire & we were just all hanging out, sitting/ laying in the back of the truck & he kisses me. It was not a good kiss, but I didn`t mind. I knew what I wanted.
- I left Ashton for Enterprise.
- Erik and I went birthday shopping for Enterprise & started drinking PGA. I got drunk off my ass. It was so much fun!
- I was so happy with Enterprise, god he made me smile & laugh, and I just really liked him, but Ashton knew how to get to me.
- I went back to Ashton.
- He cried 24/7 because I wasn`t the same person & I had moved on.
- I broke up with him for the last time, the Sunday before school let out for summer.
- I took Ryan to my softball banquet with me.
- School let out, & Enterprise spoke to me. I thought he was mad at me, but he wasn`t.
- The day school let out, all of us went muddin` & rode with Enterprise. We had so much fun. That night, we partied at the pond, Enterprise started drinking & he eventually kissed me. I liked it, a lot, but didn`t want a relationship.
- Tiff & I went to Lake Winnie & had some fun, haha. It was cool.
- Enterprise & I would kiss, but I was scared to fall for him completely. He would ask me why I would kiss if I didn`t want to date him, & I did want to date him, but I was scared.
- One day, we were fishing at lake & he was standing there with his reel & everything, I kissed him & we started making out.. Before I realized what was happening, he picked me up, my legs were around him, & he was taking to the jeep. This was nothing like me, what the hell was I doing. After we had sex, I gave in & was like, well, I guess I might as well date him now, right.
- I was supposed to be at Tiff`s one night, but instead, Enterprise & I went to the pond & spent the night there. That was the most amazing sex, from like 11 p.m. to 12 p.m. take a break, wash my car from where we almost got stuck, & come back & have sex until 4:30 a.m.
- I started smoking sometime in here.
- Enterprise, because Justin, to me.
- I meet Justin`s family & get along with everyone.
- Justin & I go to the races a lot.
- Erik started acting like a little bitch.
- I went with Justin & his family to Six Flags & White Water. It was my first time to go to both of those places & I loved him. We had so much fun.
- I finally get to meet Deena, Justin`s mom. I absolutely love her. I was so scared to meet her because of Mrs. Bitch, but I did & I realized that most people don`t act like Katrina.
- My dad tells me I look trashy because I hang with all guys. So, I get pissed, get drunk, & drive to Hippy Hole.. Park, unpark, TRY to park again, hit a car. Walk down to the Hippy Hole & tell the guys "I think I hit a car, but I`m not sure." & Everyone`s like "damn, you smell like alcohol!" Yeah, I was so fucking scared to go home.
- I get grounded the next day for driving somewhere I wasn`t supposed to. There goes my car for three weeks. At least they didn`t find out I was drunk..
- Justin & I spend the night at Chad & Alex`s, when I`m supposed to be at Tiff`s. I get so fucking drunk & puke on him. Straight alcohol and then everything goes blurry. He took me into Chad`s room & changed me, then he got me to drink some water. I never drink without him, because I know he will always take care of me.
- We go to a party & on the way home we get lost. We end up in like, Marshall County, find our way back, go to Chad & Alex`s, had a few beers & went home.
- School starts again, I`m dreading it, I`m taking pills, I`m out of control. I go the first day. I skip the second day. I didn`t go the third day because I was so upset that I wrecked my car again. I can`t drive when I`m upset & I was more upset that I had been in a long time.
- I cut for the last time. After that, I threw my razor blades away.
- School gets better, I get caught skipping quite a few times, but pretty much get off the hook.
- Justin & I have our first breakdown in October. & I can fortunately say that it wasn`t over something stupid. It was over something that really mattered. That was our first & only fight, so far. *knocks on wood* I cry, I`m wondering why I did this to myself again.. I`m all to pieces, but I didn`t cut. We work it out, with some time..
- Justin moves in in November. That was a big step, but everyone was sure of it.
- We go to Enterprise to spend Thanksgiving weekend down there.
- I have some alcohol & am having a great time, when he disappears & I realize him & his mom are having a talk. I end up drinking all of my beer & his too because I`m scared the he`s moving back to Enterprise. After their two hour long talk, he tells me that his mom can`t make him move back & that that wasn`t even what it was about. I was still crying & had gone to bed by myself by this time. We have amazing sex, and I feel safe again.
- I try to quit smoking, but can`t.
- Alix spends the night with us. We go to the Huntsville mall & get lost on the way there & on the way home.
- We spend Christmas together & have amazing times.
I have to say 20O4 was the best year I`ve ever had. I can`t explain it, but I wish you all the best year. <3
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Beef Chalupa Supreme; 380 calories.
That`s what I ate last night. Which isn`t that bad, but still bad. I didn`t get over 700 calories yesterday.
Today, I`ve had a tuna sandwich and a brownie. I don`t plan on eating again. I will be drinking lots of water & maybe a redbull.
Tomorrow will probably be a bad day. Justin`s mom is wanting to take us out to eat. & She wants us (me&her) to half a steak.
Yeah, I`m not too sure about that. Maybe, just a salad? She wants to go to The Outback. That can`t be good for my weight.
Well, at least I`ll be walking around the mall for a few hours..
My parents are leaving tomorrow. They are either going to Tunica or Metropolis. Yeah, they`ll be back Sunday. They`re going
gambling. I`d actually like to go with them to Tunica (shopping, baby) but I`m definitely staying. They deserve a break.
Tonight, I have so many choices that I don`t know what to do because Justin`s having to work & I don`t know how we`ll meet up. It really sucks. I probably shouldn`t drive tonight because of roadblocks & I don`t want to have to drive because I want to drink! Ahh, Katy`s Catfish, I effin hate you sometimes! Buut yeah, he might possibly me getting off early. Everyone is going to be drunk tonight, not going out to fucking eat!
Anyways, I`m out.
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[30 Dec 2004|05:23pm] |
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I`m such a bitch sometimes, especially when I on my period. I feel really bad for Justin because he has to put up with me. We went two hours without talking today. And we would try, one of us would like, scream, so that was no fun. I`ve been bitching at him all week, and today, he finally just gave up & quit talking. I was finally like "Okay, why aren`t you talking to me?!?" And he tells me "Because you`ve been bitching at me all day." Which was so very true, so I just sit there & neither of us speak. We get to a turn & he doesn`t know that this is where we`re supposed to turn, so I grab the wheel & start turning. Well, he starts going off & just pulls over into the bank parking lot. So, we like sit there, not say a word, then one of us will randomly yell at the other. We leave, get to where we are going. I go in, he stays in the car, we leave, don`t speak the whole way home, yadda yadda. Get home, he goes to his room & I stay downstairs. I wasn`t going to apologize, even though I should have.. He comes down, sits beside, we don`t speak. Finally, he comes over to me, kisses me, says he sorry & I also apologize (WHAT??) & we`re gravy. It`s always so much fun making up.. So, we snuggled up on the couch & watched my soap operas.
We hadn`t had sex in five day (WHAT??) Yes, FIVE-WHOLE-DAYS, that sucked. But, anyways, we did. and oh my, that was amazing. I told him maybe we should wait another five days again, that way it`s better. Sex is always good with him though (duh, who else)
Yeah, and then, Momma comes home (What is she doing home?) She has a shit eating grin on her face (this isn`t good) She wants me to help her clean the house, we have one hour (what the hell is she talking about) Oh, it`s nothing, just the reality people are coming by.. (WHHHAT?? we`re selling our house?) Oh, just for enough money. Whoa, hold up. So, I just go upstairs, start bawling my eyes out on the way, Justin checks on me ((what`s wrong?) I fill him in on what little I know.. I go back to mom, get the details, yadda yadda. We`d be making 60 grand, if they bought it. They came by (I don`t want these people living in my house!!) & I don`t think they`ll by it. They seemed like bullshitters, but who knows.
Justin goes to work, I watch GH (highlight of my days, haha) Talk to mom, yadda. I`m sitting here, ready to go play cards, but it is too fuckin` early. I can`t put up with their kids that long!!
Yadda yadda. CAL0RiES; 200; one pack of poptarts; 100 peanut brittle.
doing VERY well today. =) I hope I don`t fuck this up. I need to lose this.
New Years Eve; Justin has to WORK, (what the fuck is that?) Whitney will more than likely go to a party & have Justin meet me there after he gets off work, & then we`ll party together! whee.
New Years Day; goin` to chattanooga (who gives a shit if that`s spelled wrong?) I have a $100 Victoria Secret gift certificate to spend (yes, Justin does like that) I have become a Victoria Secret addict.
Okay, I`m out y`all. I gotta go get some red bull, or coffee, whichever comes first. <3 x4693826
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[29 Dec 2004|05:36pm] |
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I officially feel fucking gross. "Oh, you can`t weigh more than 110!" But, yes I can. I don`t see how people can look at me & think I weigh 110? I don`t know what I`m going to do yet. I don`t want to fast because it scares the fuck out of everyone & Daddy will start his "I`m gonna take you to the hospital." shit & no one here needs that. Liquid fast sounds good. I`m only eating one meal a day right now, but I`m thinking of going liquids only. Slim fast? Maybe. I`m not sure that it works.. I have Zantrax 3 right now (thank you to a very sweet girl!) but only have a few more left. I`m thinking of taking four a day until they`re gone (which will only be like 2-3 days) You`re supposed to take them with food, but whateva. I miss my one-hundred-and-seven-pound days. What the fuck happened? I`m huge and I hate it. I`ve got to start walking again, defintely. I hate walking by myself, because I`ve turned into such a people person (I don`t like being alone) but everyone either has to work, or is just too damn lazy to walk with me. It`s three miles, what the hell? I walk six miles on some days & people think three is just ungodly or something. I will not turn into another obese American. Damn, it`s already hard as hell to get through the halls now, damn fatasses.
Okay, damn, I`ve gotten all wound up about this shit. I hate being fat, hate it. "You want frozen pizzas?" Holy hell, no way.
Holy fuck, I hate this. Damn.
*runs away to barf*
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[22 Dec 2004|05:19pm] |
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I don`t know where to start, honestly. I could go about telling you what I`ve been doing (which I`ll probably end up doing anyways) but I feel something much deeper inside right now... I have the best life ever, and it`s still weird. I mean, this month last year, I was still slicing my wrists and bawling my eyes out. I felt like I was never good enough (thanks to that great family </sarcasm> yeah) and now, I don`t settle for anything that isn`t good enough for me. Not people, no way. Anyways, almost two years ago, I was lying in a hospital bed half dead thanks to my overdose. Oh, last night, I was at Paul & Wendy`s & I took some Excedrin with some grape koolaid. Can we say mistake? Oh yes, we can. Whitney became oh so very sick. I overdosed drinking grape koolaid & stashed hundreds of pills down my throat ( a lot of which were Excedrin).. So, it still gets to me when I take pills & I start puking. So, Justin & I came home early, well not really early, but early for us. Anyways, like I was saying; my live, well I, myself, have changed so much. I`m happy now. Genuinely, happy. & That my friends, is amazing. I never thought I would be nor wanted to be sixteen years old. I wanted to die, begged Lord, please take my life, and N0W. I know I still may never see sixteen, but I want to, and that`s something. I`m making sure not to over-run myself (I believe that`s what happened when I became so depressed) I`m trying to take things step by step. When I get upset, I just breathe. I threw my razor blades that I used away in August, after I used them one last time. & That was over something very stupid. I`m not playing softball this year; I`m one of the best players, but I don`t want to make that commitment & then not want to follow through. I want to enjoy my life, not have to do something 5 days a week that I get very bored with. I have no idea where this is going. I`m rambling, but I don`t give a damn.
CHiSTMAS; This will be the best Christmas ever. I have the best family in the world. Justin`s side of the family is nothing less than absolutely amazing. & Of course my family, I love each and every one of them. I`m going to see my Pawpaw for the first time in almost a year. I just love hanging out with everyone, & of course, you can`t forget the food!
JUSTiN; As most of you know, he lives here. It`s the best feeling, waking up beside him every morning, and staying with him all day. He`s at work right now. For the first time, I know what it feels like to have someone treat me like I should be treated. He never puts me down, and he doesn`t make me cry. He doesn`t find all my fault & throw them in my face; he loves everything about me. And I love everything about him.
CHRiSTMAS PARTY; Justin`s Christmas party for his work was Monday. So much fun. We had pizza & afterwards, a lot of us went back to Chad & Alex`s. Justin, Chad, & I went on a beer run to Scottsboro. (I`m ready for Fort Payne to start selling alcohol!) We came back & a lot of people were smoking weed. It was funny, but annoying. I don`t like being around that shit. I started drinking (Justin didn`t drink `til we came home; he drove.) Justin took my outside when they started rolling another blunt `cause he didn`t want me around it. So, we sat in the truck until they were finished. I drank three & snuck the rest in the house. We went up to his room & drank some more & I passed out.. Drunken sex is usually great, but I didn`t get any, haha. Anyways, so that was a lot of fun.
& Maybe I`ll be back sometime soon. <3 y`all.
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[03 Dec 2004|05:23pm] |
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I have no time to write. I have no time to get on here. Maybe a few minutes here & there, but other than that, no. As you all know, Justin lives with me now, so when he doesn`t have to work, we`re always doing something & when he does have to work, I`m doing housework, or resting. Yesterday was the first day he worked this week, & I slept from the time he left, until he got home from work @ 10pm & woke me up! So, yes, life is very tiring. I should be doing laundry & the dishes right now, but I decided to come on here.
My trip to Enterprise was nothing short of amazing. One of the best times of my life. It was only me & then everyone else was family. Which, they say I`m family too. =) We drank a little both night & just chilled & played cards. We went to a light show one night too. I have pictures, but I`m way too damn lazy to put them on here right now. We did some shopping & Justin got some of my Christmas. It`s a beautiful Hello Kitty purse & wallet, but he`s making me wait. We started our little chocolate Christmas countdown calendar thing on the first. His mom got us both one. =) I had a great time with his family, just so much fun. I was in tears when we were leaving because I miss all of them so much. Especially, Alex; she`s my little girl. She bawled her eyes out, wanting to come home with Justin & me.
Anyways, school has been alright. Everyone in my family is sick (including Justin) We`ve all got a cold & cough non stop. It`s very annoying.
Justin`s at work right now. He has to work for the next 5 days. Tomorrow night, I`m going to the football banquet with Ryan. Yes, Justin is fine with it. =) Ryan`s girl is in a pagent & Justin has to work, so he asked me to go. Justin & Ryan are friends too, so everyone`s cool with it.
Justin & I are getting up & going to trade-day in the morning. It`ll be cold, but we like to go there. I`m gonna try to get some more shopping done. We`ve got some of my parent`s & we have his mom`s, but we like his cousins & siblings. There like 3468932 of them. And, I still like everyone in my family. Christmas is so soon!!
Well, I need to get going. Love y`all.
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[23 Nov 2004|05:16pm] |
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Justin moved in yesterday. We have an extra bedroom & things aren`t going to well at home with his Dad, so we`d been talking about it for a while & my parents were like "We`re serious, whenever you get ready, you have a place to live." So, we talked about it `til one a.m. Sunday night/ monday morning, & he moved in yesterday. It was stressful because of the circumstances, but other than that, I`m excited to have him here. He had to work last night & then we stayed up until one a.m. talking about everything. I didn`t want to leave his room, but I did & amazingly, fell asleep almost right away. I figured I`d be up thinking, but I was tired. I woke up at 6:30am with his alarm going off, so I turned it off & went back to bed. 10 minutes later, the same thing happened & when I got in there, I woke up, so he could shut it off for good & he was like"climb in here with me" I was like "awww" So, I slept with him, but I woke up & he was back to sleep, so I went back to my bed. He came in at about 9 & woke me up. We ate breakfast & then, went to get him a bedroom suit, then to get him a mattress. So, he`s pretty much moved in. He forgot his deodarant (or we just haven`t found it yet) so he`s wearing mine. *l0l* Buut, yep, it`s been a very tiring week so far. I`m gonna go get some things done in his room & then just chill. He`s at work right now.
Oh, I`m leaving Friday, to go to Enterprise. Justin & I (and about 15 others) are going down there to have Thanksgiving with his family. Thursday is all of my family dinners.
Love y`all.
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[20 Nov 2004|04:26pm] |
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I haven`t had an entry all week, but it seems I`ve been super busy! Yep, so I`m not gonna go day-by-day because I can`t remember all of that.
Justin worked every day except Wednesday & Friday. Wednesday, we watched the last half of Catergory 6; Day of Deestruction & that was a great movie! Thursday night, I ate at Katy`s & they were really busy, so he only got to see me for a few minutes. I also had to make some peanut butter pies for my mom. Friday; A bunch of us got up ealry & had breakfast at the resturaunt before school. We were going to the came, but it was just too damn cold, so we played cards @ P&W`s & watched T.V. Today; we got up @ went to Trade-day. I got a shirt, hello kitty purse, & my mom & dad a gift. Justin & I both got them a birdhouse (one of Earnhardt & the other is Jr.) Then, we came back home, went to the store, took his chickens home (he got 4 new) & chilled. We played super nintendo & ate left-over pizza from last night. We also had a tickle fight on the way home (he won) but it was fun.
Tonight, I`m going to a party. Probably just gonna eat & chill `cause I wanna come home early & rest. So, maybe no drinking. ( I never turn a chance down though. ) I really don`t want to get drunk, but it`s oh-so-much fun! If I`m still there when Justin gets off work, he`s gonne come over. Or if I`m home, he`ll just come here.
Tomorrow, we`re gettin` up & going to Mountain Top. &He`s gotta go in at 4p.m.
Well, I`m about dead.. I`m really tired `cause I`ve been going & going & going. So, gotta get ready for the party; I`m out. <3
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[12 Nov 2004|06:38pm] |
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An 'x' means I've done it, a blank space means I haven't.
I have..
(x) been drunk.
( ) smoked pot.
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex.
(x ) kissed a member of the same sex.
(x) ridden in a taxi.
(x) been dumped.
( ) shoplifted.
( ) been fired.
(x) been in a fist fight
(x) had sex.
( ) had a threesome.
(x) snuck out of my parent's house.
( ) been arrested.
( ) made out with a stranger.
( ) stolen something from my job.
( ) celebrated new years in times square.
( ) gone on a blind date.
(x) lied to a friend.
( ) had a crush on a teacher.
( ) celebrated mardi gras in new orleans.
( ) been to europe.
(x) skipped school.
(x) thrown up from drinking so much.
(x) played 'clue'.
(x) had a sleepover party.
(x) gone ice skating.
(x) cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend.
(x) been cheated on.
( ) had a quinceanera.
(x) driven illegally.
I..
(x) have a boyfriend.
( ) have a girlfriend.
(x) have a crush.
(x) feel loved.
(x) feel lonely.
(x) feel happy.
( ) hate myself.
(x) think I'm attractive.
(x) have a dog.
(x) have my own room.
(x) listen to rap.
(x) listen to rock.
( ) listen to soul.
( ) listen to techno.
( ) listen to reggae.
( ) paint my nails.
(x) have more than one best friend.
( ) get good grades.
( ) play an instrument. .
(x) have slippers.
(x) wear boxers. -- for pajamas.
( ) wear underwear in general. (not usually)
(x) wear black eyeliner.
(x) like the color blue.
(x) like the color yellow.
( ) cyber.
(x) like to read. .
(x) like to write. .
(x) have long hair.
( ) have short hair.
(x) have a cell phone.
(x) have a laptop.
( ) have a pager.
I am..
( ) ugly.
(x) pretty.
(x) bored.
(x) happy.
(x) bilingual. -- well, i try.
(x) white.
( ) black.
( ) mexican.
( ) asian.
(x) short.
( ) tall.
( ) grounded.
( ) sick.
( ) a virgin.
(x) lazy.
( ) single.
(x) taken.
( ) looking.
( ) talking to someone.
( ) IMing someone.
(x) scared to die.
( ) sleepy.
( ) annoyed.
( ) hungry.
(x) thirsty.
( ) on the phone.
( ) in my room.
( ) drinking something.
( ) eating something.
(x) in my PJ's.
(x) ticklish.
(x) listening to music.
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[09 Nov 2004|07:58pm] |
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So, today is day one of my fast. I`m cleansing my body, no food. I`ve had two cups of coffee in the past 24 hours, no food. I wanted to pig out all day, until I chugged the coffee. & It feels great, really. Coffee keeps me going & it makes me feel full. =) I`m going to go until at least Thursday. I wish I could go until Friday night, but Justin had Thursday off & I know he`ll flip out if I don`t eat, `cause we always eat together.
And, I`ve only had 5 cigarettes today, which is weird. You`d think since I`m not eating, I`d be smoking like a feight train, but it seems to be the complete opposite.
I want a ring for Christmas. I`m not saying I want him to propose; I just want a ring. He asked me the other night if I wanted to go look at the necklaces & rings, & I was just like.. no. Because, I don`t want him to think he has to do something like that, yanno?
It can`t be any worse than last Christmas. I was really disappointed with Ashton. I could tell he didn`t put a minutes thought into what he got me. What kept me with him for so long? I don`t have a clue.
Buut, yeah, I know what I`m getting Justin. I`ve already got him speakers for his truck & some clothes, a John Deere tractor ( he`s in love with JD, if you didn`t know) and I know I`m gonna get him some new Timberland boots & some AE shirts. Mom & Dad will give him something, probably the boots.
I have no clue what to get his family. I never do. Buut, I know they don`t expect much & that makes me feel so much better.
Hopefully, I`m going to get to go with him down to Enterprise to see his mom on Thanksgiving. As of now, my dad is still saying no, but I think I can talk him into it. =) I really hope so, `cause I wanna see where my boyfriend lived for 5 years, yanno?
Okay, just a lot of random shit there.
I wonder is Jenn bad mouths me with Ashton`s family. I wish I could say that I just know she doesn`t, but I`m sure she does. Why do girls let a guy come between them. I mean, she was my best friend for 4 years, & she couldn`t even tell me she was dating my ex. Hmm, that`s very hypocritical of her, because I`ve sat & listened to her whine about Brooke, because Brooke does that to her. Honestly, I don`t give a shit that she`s dating Ashton. I`m actually VERY glad, because he isn`t crying to me all the damn time anymore (could be because I blocked & deleted him) but either way, I`m just glad I have no contact with him. And when I see him, I just feel like laughing, because he`s such an ass & I`m doing so much better.
Not to mention, he`s extremely ugly. Why didn`t anyone ever inform me of that?
Yep, Justin`s at work. Waiting, waiting for him to get home & call me! He has Thursday & Saturday off. He also had yesterday off. We stayed at his house all day/ evening. He cooked dinner & we/ they played darts. It was fun. =) Always is. He`s simply the best guy ever.
My daddy said if I get rid of Justin, he`s gonna kick me out & have Justin move in. *l0l* & When we are leaving, instead of saying "I love you" to me; they say "I love y`all." They`ve never loved one of my boyfriends like they do him. It`s adorable. His family does the same thing & I think it`s so cute. =)
Yep, life is amazing & I am so very thankful for that.
& Yes, I do thank God. I don`t go to church, I usually don`t pray, I`m not very religious, but I do know that God exists. I`m just not going to be a hypocritical Christian & say one thing, do the other. A lot of my friends, go to church & think they can do wrong every day, because they go to church & their sins are washed from them. I don`t think it works that way. Yanno? Yes, I`m sure God forgives, but there has to be a limit to his wonderful forgiveness.
I`m in a wonderful mood, which is weird, being as how you`d think I`d be half dead from lack of food.
Well, I`m going to get going. Love y`all.
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Okay, so I guess I`ll update y`all on my wonderful weekend, seriously. It was so much fun!!
Friday; I don`t really remember what we did right after school. I know we came back here & just chilled; I changed & everything. Oh, I shaved my legs & he sat in there with me and talked to me. Then, we went to Paul & Wendy`s, but they weren`t there, so we called Paul`s cell & they were at Wal Mart. So, we met them there & Nan was with them. =) We ended up going out to eat at the Sizzlin, but I didn`t order. I wasn`t really hungry, so I just ate some off Justin`s plate. =) After that, we left & went to the HAUNTED F0REST, which was *s0* great! We ended up being with a bunch more guys from Sylvania, so that was cool. I got so scared! This guy came out from under a bridge & grabbed my feets & I about fell off. The, Smidge ( he goes to Sylvania & also worked at the huanted forest ) tackled me & scarred the shit out of me. I was grabbing people left & right & I didn`t realize. I grabbed DJ`s hand, then realized it wasn`t Justin`s.. After that, we just went back to his house, had amazing sex, & fell asleep. He woke up, right at midnight & took me home. VERY good night. =o)
Saturday; I got to his house around 10am & got in bed with him. He ended up gettin` up and cooked us breakfast. Eggs with cheese (my fave!), biscuit & gravy, sausage, bacon, ham; it was delicious. He`s a wondeful cook. Then, we just sat around with Stoney, watching TV & talking all day. Stoney left & we had some "us" time & had very amazing sex, once again. We just spent the day together until he hadta go to work. =) When he went to work, I went to the store, visited with Mom, Dad, & Gangan, then came home. After they got home, we ate & I left & went to Katy`s because my make-up was in Justin`s truck. I got there & couldn`t find it & about the time I was about to leave, he came out (he was taking the garbage out, he didn`t know I was there) and I suprised him. =) It was cute. He found my make-up for me & we kissed goodbye. I had no more than left when Paul called me. He was at Katy`s & he was telling that they`d be home in just a few minutes, but I could go on over there. So, I went & sat around with Nan & Danielle. We watched Little Vampire on the Disney Channel. OH MY GAH!; They had like 15 cars lined up their street with trick-or-treaters. Where we live, we are lucky to get 0NE, so I was VERY amazed. It was awesome. When they got home, we ate & started playing Phase 10. Justin got there by 10;30 & we played another game of Phase 10 &a game of Uno. By that time, we were ready to go & most everyone was getting tired, so we came to my house. We got here at like, 12:30 & he ended up staying until 4am. It was great though. We just laid in bed, talking, and then we ended up making love, which is something we hardly ever do. There`s a HUGE difference between sex & making love, if you know what I mean. But, it was just mind-blowing wow. We were just going really slow & looking into each other`s eyes. I almost cried. It was just so wonderful. & I usually never get finished when we go slow, but I did like three times, & I was just so.. wow. & While we were making love & looking into each other`s eyes, he whispered "I love you" and that was so sweet. =) The night was just more than I can put into words. We just layed there quietly, holding each other, until he left around 4am.
Today; I got up & got to his house around ten-ish. He was already up & about to cook. He said "Aw, I wanted to have breakfast ready when you got here." I was like AWW, yanno? So, I just laid in his bed for a while, then ended up watching TV in the living room, like always, & chillin`. I was eating while he was cooking. As soon as he would get something finished, I would "taste test" it, yanno? His little attitude about that was cute. =) After we ate, we watched the new Garfield movie, which was cute. & We made love again and then ended up having some sex too. Very nice. Then, we went outside `cause set up a trap to catch whatever is killing his chickens.. We played with the new chickens, his uncle got `em today. =) When he left for work, I was on my way home, & I met my parents. Mom called me on my cell & told me they were going to eat at Katy`s, so I just met them there. I saw him right when I got there, but I didn`t get to tell him bye. The food was super good, as always. On the way home, I rode with him & let Daddy take my car `cause we wanted to stop at the junk store. I got some of the CUTEST stuff you`ve ever saw. But, you`ll have to wait for pictures `cause I don`t feel like it now. Now, I`m just chillin.
I can`t wait for DESPERATE H0USEWIVES, the best show! =)
Love y`all.
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1.) Confirm your identity: Whitney Leann
2.) How many years have you been on the planet? 15 years & 6 months
3.) What are three phrases you use at least daily? It`s gravy; hot; okay
4.) Are you a survey addict? Not really
5.) Do you have an online journal that you use regularly? Yesh mam
6.) Are you one of those people that are constantly applying lotion and/or chapstick? Not really, but at least twice a day.
7.) Name any mental disorders you have been diagnosed with? Severe clinical depression & Anxiety
8.) Ever freeze anyone's underwear? No, but that`d be funny shit.
9.) Name one thing you only do just because someone else thinks you should: There really isn`t anything. I`m not a people pleaser.
10.) Would you consider yourself random? Yes
11.) Do you have clothes hanging in your closet that still have the tags on them? YES! Way too many of them!
12.) Do you doodle all over your papers? When I`m really bored.
13.) Do you write down phone messages/notes on your hands? Yesh
14.) What do you think of those Kidz Bop commercials? I have no clue!
15.) What CD's in your collection are you ashamed to admit you own? None. =)
16.) Got any toe socks? I don`t think I`ve had any since the house burned.
17.) Do you find that you rub off on your friends more, or vice versa? Probably about the same; Justin rubs off on me A L0T
18.) What time is it? 8:07pm
19.) Does anybody really know what time it is? I`ve actually thought about this a lot, and.. I think not.
20.) Does anybody really care? I`m sure someone does, but not many people.
21.) Who sings that song, anyway? What song?
22.) Do you untie your shoelaces before taking them off? Not unless it`s my Timberland boots.
23.) Ever have random hallucinations? Not really.
24.) Ever take your pet for a walk? Yep. It`s actually fun, until they start DRAGGING me!
25.) Have you ever loved someone so much it made you cry? Yes, & that kinda l0ve, never works out..
26.) How much do you sleep? About normal. Or what is supposed to be normal. Anywhere from 7-9 hours a night.
27.) Do you think staying at home and raising the kids is primarily "women's work"? I think it`s a good thing. If you can afford, I think it`s be best to have a stay-at-home mom. I think Mom`s do a better job than "Mr. Moms" ;o)
28.) What do you think about gay marriage? I have absolutely nothing against it. Let people LIVE.
29.) Do blondes annoy you in general? Not really.
30.) Ever done illegal drugs? Illegal for my age.
31.) Do you smoke? Yes
32.) Have sex? Yes
33.) Yell at your parents? Sometimes, it isn`t an every day thing though.
34.) Compete with your siblings? I have no siblings.
35.) Think you got enough love as a child? Absolutely. My family is the best.
36.) Listen to pop music? Yeah
37.) Out of your own, what's your favorite perfume? Jasmine by AE, but they quit making it.
38.) Why do fools fall in love? That`s just how it goes, I guess.
39.) Why is the sky blue? It isn`t always blue, doof. It`s pink, red, purple, gray, black. It`s gorgeous on days like today. =) Justin & I sat on the dock & just watched the sky. Lovely.
40.) Did you know that your metabolism slows down at night; so if you have a midnight snack you will probably gain weight in the morning? Sure did.
41.) Are you going to have an open casket funeral? Unless I`m terribly disfigured.
42.) Do you bruise easily? Yes.
43.) Does death fascinate you? It doesn`t neccesarily fascinate me, but tragedies like Columbine & things like that; I always research those.
44.) Ever dated someone five or more years older than you? Mm, no.
45.) Ever dated someone five or more years younger than you? I`ve never dated anyone younger than me, period.
46.) What's with all the black rappers right now having such terrible teeth? I really don`t pay attention.
47.) What was the whole "rosebud" thing all about? Hmm?
48.) How many people do you think would come to your funeral? I haven`t a clue.
49.) Are you wondering why I'm still on the death thing? Whatever floats your boat.
50.) Who said this: "Death, taxes, and childbirth. There's never a convenient time for any of them." Clueless.
51.) Have you ever contributed to someone's death? I don`t think so.
52.) What Hollywood celebrity annoys you the most? No clue.
53.) What do you think about school? It`s boring & I don`t like it, but it is neccesary.
54.) Are you addicted to the internet? I`d say so.
55.) Do you have those little white vitamin deficiency marks on your fingernails? Not at the moment.
56.) Dog person or cat person? I <3 both.
57.) What do you take when you have a headache? Excedrin Migraine
58.) What's your alcoholic drink of choice? Smirnoff Twisted, Bacardi silver, & strawberry daquiris
59.) Is "settling down" a major priority for you? DEFINITELY. I really cannot wait.
60.) Do you have a calendar/datebook? Yes.
61.) Was "Beaches" as good a movie as everyone says it is? Don`t know.
62.) Physically, are you usually cold or warm? C0LD!
63.) Socially, are you usually cold or warm? I think I`m come off as cold sometimes, but I`m usually warm.
64.) Ever been so depressed that you don't shower, do the dishes, clean up anything, answer your phone or move from your couch for more than a couple days? Definitely.
65.) When you hear the scientific term "the big bang", do dirty thoughts come to mind? Haha, I`d never thought of it like that
66.) Do you ever walk by someone and they go, "How are you?" and you go, "How are you?" No, I always answer before asking. =)
67.) Wouldn't you rather we all just avoid eye contact and not say anything at all? That wouldn`t be cool.
68.) Ever do volunteer work? I`d like to do some, but there really aren`t many activities around here.
69.) Do you think community service should really be given as a punishment for criminals? Not really. I mean, it shouldn`t be the 0NLY punishment they get.
70.) Do you shoplift? No way.
71.) Ever worked so hard that you cried? I hate working hard & then it not turning out like you want, but I`ve never cried just from hard work.
72.) What if God was one of us? I adore this song.
73.) Who sings that song? Jewel & Joan Osborne
74.) Are you old enough to remember the commercial with little old lady saying "Where's the beef?" I don`t think so.
75.) Finish this sentence: "My kingdom for a/an ________." KING!
76.) Do you remember the Care Bear craze? Yeah, I used to have some of `em!
77.) How about when Oprah was fat? Yep.
78.) Remember Pogs? No
79.) Remember when that gymnast sprained her ankle in the summer Olympics, 1996? Surely so.
80.) Remember what you were doing yesterday at this time? Watching TV, or sitting on here.
81.) Do you love shoes? OH MY, YES!
82.) What shampoo do you use? I swap up `cause it`s healthier for your hair. =)
83.) How do you feel right now? Okay, I`d a lot rather be with my baby, than sitting here bored, on my ass though.
84.) Do you let dogs lick your face? Yeah, their mouths are cleaner that ours, so I`ve heard.
85.) Do you subscribe to Playgirl or Playboy? No, but I do look at porno magazines. The articles are fun to read & the comics are too.
86.) What are you doing right now besides filling out this survey ? Listening to music.
87.) What year were you born? 1989
88.) Do you rule that year? Sure.
89.) Do you paint your nails? Not usually.
90.) What's your hair length? Down my back.
91.) When did you get a cut/trim last? Last Thursday
92.) Do you have hoity- toity relatives, or trailer trash relatives? I`m sure some people would consider them "traler trash" but I love them nontheless.
93.) Would you consider yourself to have an innovative mind? Sure.
94.) Has an old man/woman ever flirted with you? I`m sure it`s happened.
95.) Ever written a survey like this? Nope
96.) Would you ever consider dating someone who'd been in prison? It depends. People do deserve second chances.
97.) Are you worth crying over? Not too much.
98.) Do you know anyone who's drowned? When we were in like, 1st or 2nd grade, a little boy drowned.
99.) Would you rather have a one-on-one conversation or go to a party? Depends, I wanna go to a party right now.
100.) Do you feel better after purging all this random information from your system? Sure. =)
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